Okay, to start writing again. Where to begin.....I'm not sure. I want to begin where I am, but I'm not sure. Where I am, I have no clue. Eight to ten years ago I would say I was in the middle of nowhere and yet I had no idea what nowhere was; now I do. No man's land. I guess that's what you would say. There is no way to describe it except to just talk about what has happened and what is happening. The whole gist of it? The valley of the shadow of death. Yes that is how I would describe it. When I read that Psalm, I think of the past ten years....or at least eight. If it had not been for God, my kids and my husband, I would not be here. That is the absolute truth. God himself put these dear beings in my life for the very reason of giving me a reason for living.
I now know why some people would do anything for drugs. Don't make rash judgements when I say that. The reason I say this is because when someone is in so much pain and that is the ONLY thing that can help a them cope, then, yes...give me the drugs. I can also understand why some people make rash decisions, react to certain things, and just go beserk.........it's called PAIN. Pain will make one do anything. And the person writing this has had three children naturally and without major drugs, and that is some of the most unbearable pain yet........so, yes I can endure pain.......or so I thought.....until these past years.
I have to stop now. I will continue this later or at another time.
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